Last week I thought of giving up smoking. Not because of my health, but because I wanted to have a valid reason
for feeling like shit.
I was succesful...
in finding a valid reason.
I realized that I am
not meant to succeed
at anything.
Excuse me while I light another cigarette...
And yes... I am the freak in the picture.
8.5.05
Autistic and Apathetic Me
My friend Tupe was telling me about her adventures or should I say misadventures about this certain girl. Funny thing is I used to be inspired when I hear stuff like this. Now all I could tell her was that I could not imagine ever being that "dedicated" to a potential babe ever again. Its just not in me anymore. I used to feel actual physical pain whenever someone I like very much did not like me back. Now the only time that I can even find someone remotely attractive is when I am inebriated.
Its not that I have given up on or have stopped believing in "love", It's just that of all the things that are NOT going on in my life right now, not having someone to "love" is something that I'm fine with. They've always said that I was a little autistic. So I'm supposed to live in my own little world. Therefore, not meant to be part of a pair or something like that.
Its not that I have given up on or have stopped believing in "love", It's just that of all the things that are NOT going on in my life right now, not having someone to "love" is something that I'm fine with. They've always said that I was a little autistic. So I'm supposed to live in my own little world. Therefore, not meant to be part of a pair or something like that.
My very wise friend Tupe tells me that I just haven't found the right person yet. harhar!!! We'll see....
posted by jeanne @ 16:10
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