Last week I thought of giving up smoking. Not because of my health, but because I wanted to have a valid reason
for feeling like shit.
I was succesful...
in finding a valid reason.
I realized that I am
not meant to succeed
at anything.
Excuse me while I light another cigarette...
And yes... I am the freak in the picture.
30.1.06
Much Ado About Nothing
I just realized that I have only been able to update my blog once every month. It's not because I don't have time. Time is actually the one thing that I have truckloads of. It's just been hard to find inspiration to write because the things that inspire me I can't really write about.
Why? Who the hell cares? DUH? What's new? It’s almost the same old story with just a slightly different set of characters. And it totally sucks now as much as it did 3 years ago. Don't know what I'm talking about? Don't feel so confused. I don't know what I'm talking about either. Well... actually I have an idea but I really don't wanna have to go into it right now. Like I said... "Who cares?"
It's no big deal. If there's anything that that unsightly episode in my life taught me is that I will get over this… sooner or later. I'm betting it's going to be later rather than sooner. It's going to be "later" until about a day before I find the next one that I'm going to go nutz over and then the entire story begins again. Aaargh.
Okay. I know I can pretty much be considered as the most ungrateful asshole in the universe for complaining since everything's fine. Someone said that I should just enjoy the sights while I'm here and not obsess about when its time to go back home but jeesh, I really like being here damn it! Wait... scratch that... I think I can already say that "I liked being there" because I think that I'm already on my way back, which, should explain all the profanity present in this blog entry. harhar.
Just to make everything clear, just in case by some miracle, anybody reads this and… decides to get any "bright ideas" about what this means: I'm not mad, just frustrated at how certain things work or don't work out the way you really, really want it to; to be more specific. This is just my way of making up for all the things that I can't say out loud.
Fart! I am making no sense at all am I? Grrrh... I am sooo tired of this bullshit as in PAAAGOD NA AKO! Maybe I should just sleep this off. Maybe I'll feel better tomorrow. But then again, considering what day tomorrow is... maybe not.
posted by jeanne @ 11:46
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